Late Night Thoughts

I've noticed something 'weird' about myself. Not weird, really, but strange.

I was just posting to a website I frequent, and when I read my post, I realized that I have changed. Not matured, mind you, just changed. I speak my piece in a different tone. It's as if I'm indestructible because in 99 days, I'll be retired.

I can say pretty much what I believe because there's nothing anyone can do to me. Fire me? Sure, I'll draw unemployment compensation and get my State Retirement earlier than planned.

Just 'don't get me started' because I just might not stop.

Understand, if you don't know me, that I am one of the kindest and nicest people you'll meet. I have not a mean-bone in my body. Wasn't raised that way. Daddy always said to "put the best construction on everything." That means not to be mean-spirited as a reaction to people who are mean-spirited to me.

And I nearly always have followed that code. My ability to forgive is genuine and large.

My ability to shift a person from friend to acquaintance to "person" is an amazing feat in itself. Leaving them in "person" mode to their own devices and the ultimate Judgment rather than take vengence on them myself works for me.

That's about it for this late hour. I'm off to sleep.